wat am i exatly????

what am i exactly?
sometimes, i really got think that am i a monster?
a beast?
or just a normal human being his life without any meaning
i just don't know how to describe myself
maybe i spend my life too simple already
let the time just pass without caring anyone feel
especially to the person u like
everybody also have his/her own feeling...
sad... happy...
but i just dint notice about this every time
when i notice about it,
the person that i care always,
the person that i love,
will getting hurt by my stupid action
sometimes, i really disappointed to myself
i have think that maybe i can do something to pay off the thing that i have done
especially the person that i hurt the most

i have wondering that is that human life is like that?
hurting people around u
protecting the person that u like
is that the real side of our world?

i think that i better stop writing here...
become more moody