2 years

the time has pass too fast
i already in unimas for 2 years
i have experience the sweet, sour, bitter, and spicy feeling

inside unimas, i got a short period going crazy and down due to my study
luckily, got a people that encourage me, guide me, lead me and pull me from the darkness
therefore, i put all my feeling on her,
and help her whatever i can,
even though it hard, but i will try my best to get it for 'you'
you have brought me the smile
you are a brightest star in my heart...
this is what i say sweet




In the other hand,


i have study in unimas for 2 years,
but all my head is not how to apply what i learn in my head,
what i think the most is playing, sleeping(hehez)
i want to change on it,
but how????
that the point...

now,
my uni want to create a matriculation here,
inside my uni,
they rather to kick around 1k old student per college,
and receive another more new 1k student as their target... (WHAT THE HELL!!!!!)
many people still think that it is only kick out for 200 students...
but they did not think about new batch students and matriculation students,
a new batch students for uni also take 5++ students,
then matriculation??? i assume it be 1++ students,
and then my old camp's students also switch to my college and others.... and i take it as 3++
TOTAL = around 1k!!!!

the name list come out on 4 of march for my college... (maybe will postpone to end of may)
do you think that 1k students can manage to find a house during holiday??
what about western malaysia...
it so unfair....
last time, they say more than 10 merit can stay dy( around 10 chops)
after awhile, 15 merits
after that, change to 20
after pass the book, they say 30
and the chop that i buy
they say 1 merit per chop,
then 10 chops for 1 merit
now 0.1 merit per chop (RM3 each)...
it expensive, dude....
you thought all students so rich 1?
you all just like a vampire!!!!
suck our money so seriously!!!!

haiz~
it already be pass,
what i can do now, is only sit and look forward to the positive site...
(IF I ABLE TO)

SAD SAD SAD


this is what i say spicy and bitter

爱一个人

你可知道
要女人清晨醒来
凌乱的面對一個愛的人
是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道
當女人被男人
脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人爲什麽會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱着她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那么愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深爱你的女人在冲你发火以後
自己卻轉身不斷啜泣

你可知道
當女人頂着哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性 她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你发火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐惧

而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你还不够懂她

女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

于是，你們争吵，你認為她脾氣不好，她認為你不够迁就她

……
于是，你们冷战，你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……

請給她一個拥抱一个吻，用你的拥抱你的吻去化解她心里的悲傷和眼角的泪水。
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安静。。。。。。。。。。

两个深爱的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相体谅，互相信任，
否则当你们真正失去时将会遗憾终生。。。。。。
否则美好的未来也就在你们自己手中泯灭了！。。。。。。

希望每一个男人都能够好好珍惜陪伴在你身边的女人
她们为你付出过，不求回报
却希望你们能够读懂，能够牵着她们的手坚定地走下去
不要让爱你的女人流泪
不要让她伤心
更不要让她绝望和死心！

因为女人一旦真爱了，失去她爱着的人
就意味着失去了整个世界...

女孩子20岁左右是她最美丽的。这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。
男孩子20左右的时候是他最暗淡的日子，这时什么都没有，不能独立又不想依赖，
挣扎着彷徨着，寻找着自己的位置，

所以如果一个男孩子在他20岁左右的时候遇见了与他年纪相当的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，
因为这个女孩子是用用自己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最黯淡的日子！

女孩只有陪他走过，女孩将永远幸福下去。

after a sem

it already 6 month i left my home,
i have see many kind of things in my life
the way the person want to make my subject fail,
the way the person show his dislike,
and a lots more,
the ways that they show me has teach me a person feel when they have done to me...
it just like a nightmare to me,
it has cover into my real life,
torture me a lot...
but thanks to my love one,
she has encourage me,
accompany through this hard time...
i really like to says thank to you.
thank you so much

days

it already almost 21 years already,
i feel my live pass through so fast,
suddenly i also older and older...
in this 21 years,
what have i face,
what have i see,
what have i be challenge,
it also become 1 of my experience...
i going back to uni tomorrow again,
just feel like the sem break is pass just like i close my eyes and open it again...
what have we done this two month????
study?
play?
movie?
drama?
sleep?
is that all?
for me, i done all of that...
just feel that i wasting my time,
not yet finish done my things,
i do those meaningless things this few week...
when i packing my stuff,
seeing that the time is coming,
i will see that how silly i am...
sometime, i think that human should enjoy their life
when still got chance,
but, it prove that it also will wrong sometime
not always
seen i will go to uni tomorrow early morning,
i just stop it here...
night....

wat am i exatly????

what am i exactly?
sometimes, i really got think that am i a monster?
a beast?
or just a normal human being his life without any meaning
i just don't know how to describe myself
maybe i spend my life too simple already
let the time just pass without caring anyone feel
especially to the person u like
everybody also have his/her own feeling...
sad... happy...
but i just dint notice about this every time
when i notice about it,
the person that i care always,
the person that i love,
will getting hurt by my stupid action
sometimes, i really disappointed to myself
i have think that maybe i can do something to pay off the thing that i have done
especially the person that i hurt the most

i have wondering that is that human life is like that?
hurting people around u
protecting the person that u like
is that the real side of our world?

i think that i better stop writing here...
become more moody

tiring day

today is the most tiring day among this week....
i been busy from morning until night....
dunno wat i been busy about...
aih....
morning, i go to my aunt house to do some bussiness
around 3 pm,
i go play badminton vf my dear frenz....
around 5 pm,
i go for basketball....
for the keep on to my keep fit plan.... :-)
night,
i fetch my lovely mom to my aunt house again
i feel like today i cant take a single breath today....
is it be like this until the end of my life???
better not so....
if not, it will bring my life shorter and shorter....
i still want to enjoy my life....
dont make my life too complicated......

the end :-)

inner part of myself?

sometime, i really confuse that what i really need....
sometime, i can't make a decision and get myself stuck inside there...
sometime, i don't really understand myself, even recognize my own self...
i wondering why i will suffer for all this
is that the thing that will be go through a life?
or i just a normal person, too normal person to understand what is life real meaning
if all the person know who i am...
and i believe all of them say that i like to 'blow water' a, 'sell fish' a, or such thing like that...
and i do believe i act like that sometime....
because of this, i become lack of confidence, lack of humor, and become 'la ta' a...
i have see through all my weakness
should i change those bad habit?
it sometime really hard to make the decision...
i have think that inner is the hardest thing to change...
if i don't change it now, i might be regret for my whole life...

therefore, at the end
i will try to change
change as much as possible...
let those people see a different of me
only inner, about outer i not very sure can change
but, i believe many people will tell me their formula to become 'pretty' again... hehez
what i can say here
i will try my best to achieve it
and i will not try to let those people that believe i can down...

hereby, i wish all the people who read this passage and would like to change themselves also
will achieve their dream.... make your dream become your life, make it more challenging...
so, Gambateh... and strike for it