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2 years

2010-05-01T09:48:00.002+08:00

the time has pass too fast
i already in unimas for 2 years
i have experience the sweet, sour, bitter, and spicy feeling

inside unimas, i got a short period going crazy and down due to my study
luckily, got a people that encourage me, guide me, lead me and pull me from the darkness
therefore, i put all my feeling on her,
and help her whatever i can,
even though it hard, but i will try my best to get it for 'you'
you have brought me the smile
you are a brightest star in my heart...
this is what i say sweet

In the other hand,

i have study in unimas for 2 years,
but all my head is not how to apply what i learn in my head,
what i think the most is playing, sleeping(hehez)
i want to change on it,
but how????
that the point...

now,
my uni want to create a matriculation here,
inside my uni,
they rather to kick around 1k old student per college,
and receive another more new 1k student as their target... (WHAT THE HELL!!!!!)
many people still think that it is only kick out for 200 students...
but they did not think about new batch students and matriculation students,
a new batch students for uni also take 5++ students,
then matriculation??? i assume it be 1++ students,
and then my old camp's students also switch to my college and others.... and i take it as 3++
TOTAL = around 1k!!!!

the name list come out on 4 of march for my college... (maybe will postpone to end of may)
do you think that 1k students can manage to find a house during holiday??
what about western malaysia...
it so unfair....
last time, they say more than 10 merit can stay dy( around 10 chops)
after awhile, 15 merits
after that, change to 20
after pass the book, they say 30
and the chop that i buy
they say 1 merit per chop,
then 10 chops for 1 merit
now 0.1 merit per chop (RM3 each)...
it expensive, dude....
you thought all students so rich 1?
you all just like a vampire!!!!
suck our money so seriously!!!!

haiz~
it already be pass,
what i can do now, is only sit and look forward to the positive site...
(IF I ABLE TO)

SAD SAD SAD

this is what i say spicy and bitter

爱一个人

2010-01-21T06:14:00.000+08:00

你可知道
要女人清晨醒来
凌乱的面對一個愛的人
是需要有很大的勇氣

你可知道
當女人被男人
脫去自己的衣服
一絲不掛的在他面前
是需要多少的愛

你可知道
女人爲什麽會背朝你睡
因為她不喜歡看你的背影
如果你以後抱着她睡
她會安心一整個晚上

你可知道
女人把每一次的愛情
當作是初戀
也是這輩子最後一個來愛

你可知道
女人那么愛吃醋不是因為不相信你
而是你在她心中太美好
她不希望這種美好倒映在別的女人眼中

你可知道
深爱你的女人在冲你发火以後
自己卻轉身不斷啜泣

你可知道
當女人頂着哭花的臉
走在街上
不管是不是有人在看她時
她的心已經快要死了

你可知道
她只會對她愛的男人嘮叨
也只會對她在乎的人耍性子

你可知道
她的任性她的壞脾氣
其實都只是在對你撒嬌
希望你更重視她

你可知道
假若她不愛你
她根本不會對你发火
不會希望你去哄她
更不會為你掉眼淚
因為她不愛的人沒那本事

你可知道
當你離開她
留下她獨自一人
她有多大的期待和恐惧

而這一切都只是因為她愛你
而這一切都因為你还不够懂她

女人知道太多不該知道的事情
男人不知道太多該知道的事情

于是，你們争吵，你認為她脾氣不好，她認為你不够迁就她

……
于是，你们冷战，你以為她沒有完全接受你，她以為你不在乎她……

請給她一個拥抱一个吻，用你的拥抱你的吻去化解她心里的悲傷和眼角的泪水。
因為她只是害怕你的冷漠、轉身和安静。。。。。。。。。。

两个深爱的人在一起，就要
互相包容，互相理解，互相体谅，互相信任，
否则当你们真正失去时将会遗憾终生。。。。。。
否则美好的未来也就在你们自己手中泯灭了！。。。。。。

希望每一个男人都能够好好珍惜陪伴在你身边的女人
她们为你付出过，不求回报
却希望你们能够读懂，能够牵着她们的手坚定地走下去
不要让爱你的女人流泪
不要让她伤心
更不要让她绝望和死心！

因为女人一旦真爱了，失去她爱着的人
就意味着失去了整个世界...

女孩子20岁左右是她最美丽的。这时她的心地最善良，她有点成熟，又有点孩子气。
男孩子20左右的时候是他最暗淡的日子，这时什么都没有，不能独立又不想依赖，
挣扎着彷徨着，寻找着自己的位置，

所以如果一个男孩子在他20岁左右的时候遇见了与他年纪相当的女孩子，那一定要珍惜她，
因为这个女孩子是用用自己最美丽的年华陪他走过了最黯淡的日子！

女孩只有陪他走过，女孩将永远幸福下去。

after a sem

2009-11-26T18:55:00.002+08:00

it already 6 month i left my home,
i have see many kind of things in my life
the way the person want to make my subject fail,
the way the person show his dislike,
and a lots more,
the ways that they show me has teach me a person feel when they have done to me...
it just like a nightmare to me,
it has cover into my real life,
torture me a lot...
but thanks to my love one,
she has encourage me,
accompany through this hard time...
i really like to says thank to you.
thank you so much

days

2009-07-01T21:19:00.002+08:00

it already almost 21 years already,
i feel my live pass through so fast,
suddenly i also older and older...
in this 21 years,
what have i face,
what have i see,
what have i be challenge,
it also become 1 of my experience...
i going back to uni tomorrow again,
just feel like the sem break is pass just like i close my eyes and open it again...
what have we done this two month????
study?
play?
movie?
drama?
sleep?
is that all?
for me, i done all of that...
just feel that i wasting my time,
not yet finish done my things,
i do those meaningless things this few week...
when i packing my stuff,
seeing that the time is coming,
i will see that how silly i am...
sometime, i think that human should enjoy their life
when still got chance,
but, it prove that it also will wrong sometime
not always
seen i will go to uni tomorrow early morning,
i just stop it here...
night....

wat am i exatly????

2009-06-11T21:27:00.002+08:00

what am i exactly?
sometimes, i really got think that am i a monster?
a beast?
or just a normal human being his life without any meaning
i just don't know how to describe myself
maybe i spend my life too simple already
let the time just pass without caring anyone feel
especially to the person u like
everybody also have his/her own feeling...
sad... happy...
but i just dint notice about this every time
when i notice about it,
the person that i care always,
the person that i love,
will getting hurt by my stupid action
sometimes, i really disappointed to myself
i have think that maybe i can do something to pay off the thing that i have done
especially the person that i hurt the most

i have wondering that is that human life is like that?
hurting people around u
protecting the person that u like
is that the real side of our world?

i think that i better stop writing here...
become more moody

tiring day

2009-06-10T21:55:00.002+08:00

today is the most tiring day among this week....
i been busy from morning until night....
dunno wat i been busy about...
aih....
morning, i go to my aunt house to do some bussiness
around 3 pm,
i go play badminton vf my dear frenz....
around 5 pm,
i go for basketball....
for the keep on to my keep fit plan.... :-)
night,
i fetch my lovely mom to my aunt house again
i feel like today i cant take a single breath today....
is it be like this until the end of my life???
better not so....
if not, it will bring my life shorter and shorter....
i still want to enjoy my life....
dont make my life too complicated......

the end :-)

inner part of myself?

2009-06-03T00:00:00.005+08:00

sometime, i really confuse that what i really need....
sometime, i can't make a decision and get myself stuck inside there...
sometime, i don't really understand myself, even recognize my own self...
i wondering why i will suffer for all this
is that the thing that will be go through a life?
or i just a normal person, too normal person to understand what is life real meaning
if all the person know who i am...
and i believe all of them say that i like to 'blow water' a, 'sell fish' a, or such thing like that...
and i do believe i act like that sometime....
because of this, i become lack of confidence, lack of humor, and become 'la ta' a...
i have see through all my weakness
should i change those bad habit?
it sometime really hard to make the decision...
i have think that inner is the hardest thing to change...
if i don't change it now, i might be regret for my whole life...

therefore, at the end
i will try to change
change as much as possible...
let those people see a different of me
only inner, about outer i not very sure can change
but, i believe many people will tell me their formula to become 'pretty' again... hehez
what i can say here
i will try my best to achieve it
and i will not try to let those people that believe i can down...

hereby, i wish all the people who read this passage and would like to change themselves also
will achieve their dream.... make your dream become your life, make it more challenging...
so, Gambateh... and strike for it

端午节

2009-05-26T14:31:00.002+08:00

一年一度的端午节到了,
我相信大家跟我的心情一样.
有粽子吃哦...
可以弄棕子咯...
是不是?
我跟大家一样,拨不及待...
但有多少人知道它的存在意义...
在我认识的朋友当中,只有一些人明白它...
那些不明白的,就说吃啊吃啊....不然的话,就是说不是吃棕子,哪吃什么?
这有如我们的传统正在流失...
那以后,我们的后代会了解它吗?
其实每样东西的存在都有他们的意义,不然他们在世上干什么呢?
难以了解...
但我还是希望大家端午节快乐....

埋在心中已久的感觉

2009-05-26T14:28:00.002+08:00

我的心中总是有一种莫名其妙的感觉，一种被针刺的感觉。这种感觉已埋在我的心中很久了，应该有10年吧。。。那个时候，我拥有着一个美满的家庭。我一直都希望这个家庭能陪我共渡人生。但这个世上总有一些不能预测的事情会发生，我所希望的美满家庭的美梦被打碎了。
这是我一直以来所困扰的。。。
那时候，我跟平常的学生都一样念着小学。那时候，我还是一个不懂得天高地厚的頑皮小子，我回到家里便抛下书包，便去玩乐。我跟我心爱的婆婆去附近的草场玩。回到家后，婆婆就跟我说了很多人生的道理，她还说社会上有各种的人物会出现，和很多我都听不明白的道理，应该那时候我太小了，我便随便的点头就算了。
婆婆说完便说她累了，便走进他的房内睡了。我便拿起我的功课起来做，做下做下，时间跑得真快。多一会儿就是我婆婆喜欢看的电视节目，我便跑去她房外敲门，敲了很久都没人回应。我就去找我的双亲去问婆婆有出去吗？他们都说没有，于是我们便找门匙打开，我们所见到的就是一具冷冰冰的尸体。我的双亲立刻打电话求救，我呢？？我却在那儿傻傻的站在那儿看着婆婆。我的心中有多么的难过啊!!!!
几个小时前，婆婆还跟我去玩，跟我聊天，跟我说她遇到的人生道理。几个小时后，她便是一具不能再陪伴着我的尸体。我的眼中忍耐着，一直对自己说别掉眼泪，婆婆见到了会不喜欢。但我又能做些什么呢？我却无能为力，只能眼巴巴地看着她被人放进棺木里。我的心中多么难受啊！！！
她一直希望能看着我长大成人，看我的毕业典礼，看着我走向成功的路程，看着我结婚，抱孙子。。。
那时候，我便开始理解她对我说的人生道理，我们的人生中面对的障碍。我为了能明白世界的理念，我走去图书馆借，从电视节目中理解，我便知道每个人的路程都不一样。这也导致我提早了解社会的丑陋。
我一直很遗憾没能完成婆婆心愿。。。我不想再说了。。。越说越伤心。。。就到这边吧！！！

ＡＢ型狮子座的性格—性格及气质

2009-05-26T01:48:00.001+08:00

ＡＢ型狮子座的你，给人的感觉就像一头巨狮，威严而不可侵犯，
这也是你的性格特征，做事都勇猛过人、昂首阔步。　
你最厉害的一点，虽然给人威严的感觉，
但却不是傲慢不可接近，这就是所谓的亦庄亦谐吧！
你跟别人相处总是显得和蔼可亲，有时也能谈笑风，显得天真又开朗，
但是，该严肃时你一收敛起笑容，便令人望而生畏，分寸掌握得很好。
在人群中，你永远是最活跃显眼，你我独特的魅力，
能以开朗大方的态度打入社交界名流的圈子，
有一套使自己大出风头的哲学，
而这些多半是靠着天生的气质所造就而成。　　
如此的个性气质，通常会让人有值得依赖之感，
你对别人的请求从不轻易拒绝，而且能耐心帮助别人，不负所托。
整体来说，甚具绅士名流、善心人士的风度。
不过，若是自己的付出，得不到别人回报，
你会收起和气的态度，虽然表面平静，
但内心却很不是滋味，长久耿耿于怀。

myself

2009-05-26T01:07:00.003+08:00

Am i a normal person?
Am i abnormal?
Am i a complicated person?
Am i suitable to stay in this complicated society?
I also not understand yourself so much, How to understand other?
I have think about myself a lot, but i still dunno how to describe myself...
Is that a stupid thing that wanna say...
Every people say that a normal person should have a target to achieve, and the abnormal person will only go through their life by wasting their time...
But i am the people that don't have any target or dream....And i don't like to waste my time...
Got many people say that i am a smart people...
But i Don't think so, if i am smart, is that i will wasting my time to write this blog?
Wasting my time on study? Job?
I really really dunno how to describe myself...
Maybe the time is passing through me so fast and i just can't catch up....
I maybe a Very very very stupid person who just care about the thing beside me...
Not for the universal even society....
it's getting late already.... I just stop it here

营

2009-05-25T22:43:00.000+08:00

这是我第一次参加这种camp...在这繁忙的营中，我学会了很多很多的东西。也让我认识了许许多多来自各地的朋友。我很高兴参加这个营，我也很伤心，从这个营中，我的全部感受都被表现出来了。
22/5-营会第一天
这一天，当我正要出发时，忽然下了一场大雨，我被逼冒着风风雨雨地往向巴士站。那时大约十二点凌晨，巴士士机老大的驾驶技巧‘太好了’，弄得我一路无法入睡。唉！！！！那时我已经累得不像一个人了。。。当我已在营中哪儿，一个情况出现了，我唯一的鞋子壞了，我逼着赤脚的走到外边的鞋店去买一对新的。回到营中，全部代表也陆陆续续的来了。我们在这个营中，几乎可以说没得冲凉，没得睡觉。好累哦！！！
23/5-营会第二天
这一天，我感觉到我生病了，但我却不知哪里不对，只好自己忍耐着。
24/5-营会最后一天
终于到了最后一天，我拨不急待地想着回家。。。在巴士站等待着的我，无聊的在那儿四周逛逛。。。累了，我就休息一会儿，有一位年纪大约60岁左右的老伯伯来到我的面前就说‘小朋友，我需要你的帮忙，只要RM40，帮助他们到外地工作’ 我想了又想，四周围有一大群的人，为何一定要找我呢？于是，我拒绝了他，他便说如果我帮了他的话，就会得到别人的保护。天啊！！！！这等于是收保护费啊！！！我便想，如果我没给他的话，我会受到怎样的对待？如果我给了他，他一而再，再而三地跟我讨呢？？？我便说我的巴士到了，赶着上巴士，那位老伯伯才放开我。好恐怖啊！！！

所以说我在这次营中明白到社会的恐怖，的悲惨。。。

First time

2009-05-25T22:37:00.000+08:00

This is the first time i write the blog... i dunno what should i write in it, but i would like to share my feeling and would like to know the opinion from all my fellow friend